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I'm not emo like everyone says.
I'm not doing it for the attention,
I don't want to see you sad,
and I don't want to make you cry.
I don't want to die right now,
and I'm not going to do it myself.
I can't do everything right,
and I can't make everyone happy.
But I'm a good enough person,
to set here and cry and fall apart,
just to see if this person is alive.
Now you see to me we live,
in a real ******** up world here,
and such a ******** up life I have,
but I'm so ******** happy here,
and I don't ******** want to leave it.
I have this pain that talks to me,
it tells me things you don't know,
things you will never understand.
I don't want you to see all this,
everything I see inside this world.
I know too much and I won't share,
this is totally fair cause I care,
I care about all of the people I have,
all of them close to me my beloved.
Now I do some ******** up things,
and I've totally ******** up this life,
but I can fix it everything broken,
everything wrong with me inside.
So I have issues and hurt myself,
I have secrets and things to hide.
But I don't deny I'm not perfect,
and I don't expect you all out there,
to totally fall in love with me here,
cause I don't want things that way.
I have pity on others not on myself,
I feel sorry for others around me,
but I'll never feel that way to myself.
Cause you see in all this talk,
I'm self-hating can you tell?
I'd never feel sorry for myself...