Everything is finally beginning to end for me. I only have one thing left in this world. If I could give you my heart for safe keeping, I would, Sam. I'm frightened beyond my intellectual capacity. Consequently, I am being driven insane by fear. Where do I go? What should I do? I need to know the answer. I'm tried of apologizing and acting contrite over things I can barely comprehend. Have I not lost enough blood to say I'm sorry to the world, or should it be their duty to draw my blood through unadulterated hatred and violence. If only I knew what I did to deserve the punishment I receive. I only have Sam left in the entire world.
Why doesn't she think I love her? When the only thing left for me thinks I don't acknowledge her love that keeps me alive, the single thing that keeps me alive, why must I suffer through an inconsequential life? When Sam stops loving me, I stop living. Please don't let me die. When my world doesn't exist, where am I but nonexistent? I am confused. Somebody help me. Somebody stop this. I feel sick to my stomach every minute of the day. My brain feels like its going to die. Somebody please help me. I don't want to die. The Answer.
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You don't seem like that kind of guy, and I'd be utterly dissapointed if you did. God, Chris. If you love him, make it clear. Do it, if not for Sam, for yourself.
Maybe we do have things in common, Chris... You need to pull yourself up. If you need someone to hold your hand the way there, I'll be ready when you need me. You'll always have a friend in me.