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My dad basically said he hates me today.

"I don't know how someone I love like you can make me hate you at the same time."

For a while, it got to me.
Like... I was crying.
I couldn't imagine what it was like...
But, then I remembered he had said this before.
So, did it really bother me THAT much?

Well, yeah. It did.

It was all because I was talking to this guy WHO IS MY FRIEND that my dad doesn't trust.
My dad thinks I'll get raped by any guy.
And he doesn't want me to trust any of them.

But, I went against what he said and I followed my heart.
I went against what he said.
I disobeyed for what I believe in.

And sure, he may be mad.
Well, hell, I know he is.
But, he's got to remember...
I've ALWAYS done what I believe in, even if he doesn't think I do.
Whatever I believe in is what I do.

That's why was still talking to that guy.

But, I finally decided to stop, today.
He was causing a lot of tension between my dad and me...
and I don't think I was able to take it.
So, I wrote him a goodbye note, send it through xbox.com, and blocked communications.

I just hope he understands it...

AND I'm not gunna be on xbox live for either a LONG time, or forever.
But, I'm fine without it, I guess.

He said I'm not grounded because I finally came clean.
But, I dunno.

He said until I move out, I better listen to him.

SO, that's why, when I'm 18, I'm GONE.
Me and Faith (Greenwood, from school), are moving into this nice 6-room, 4-bathroom house.
I'll be able to balance College and a job.
I mean, hell.
I'll be going to college for free (At the U of D), unless I go to Berklee, but I doubt that.
But, free college, working with music as a major, vet tech as a minor...
I'm all set.

I've had this planned for a long time, because I'm tired of all this stuff.
ANd sure, I'm probably at blame for this.
But, I really don't care, at this point.
I'm going to do what I believe in.
That's simply how it is.
I don't care if its childish, and I don't care if its foolish.
ITS ME.
ITS WHAT I DO.

So, I guess this ends this here.
ANd, I believe that I've become stronger.
I've become more passionate for what I do.
And I'm glad. (Even with this deep depression I currently have).