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Man oh man. Arn't things just GRAND!!! I have been having the most fun ever. This past few months have been just grand. I love how Everything I do wrong is the worst thing to ever happen earths history! I also love how when someone else does something to hurt me, they don't have to do a damned thing about it. But as soon as I do I have to apologize or they decide to rasie some kind of HUGE mob of people to attack me for being an a**. Don't you just love double standers? I just enjoy it sooooooo much. I love having that done to me. It just makes me sooooo happy! And Another thing I hate is how ALL of my friends seem to be mad or upset with me. You know what else would be great? If they simply told me what was wrong. But NO! I have to be left in the dark to fumble around blindly until I find it and then it is too late. That just makes me really happy! So happy that I just cry with joy! I also hate how I keep getting left behind. Most of my friends just leave me to chase after my other friend who doesn't really like it. What makes it even better is how they all seem to be treating me as if I have no emotitions. well... Isn't wonderful that I do?? I get so happy when it happen. I feel like a milllion dollers! Oh the tears? don't mind them. I am just so happy that i am crying. I can't tell anyone what they are doing to me because they demand proof. how can I give proof of your actions? And why oh why do I have to believe them? Oh right, because if I don't what kind of puppet would I be? What kind of puppet talks back? one that gets thrown away. I would much rather not be. i love some of them so much there would be much left for me if they just tossed me away like nothing... but I guess... what happens happens.. I just wish it would all end differently...