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My name was Scott. I lost that name a long time ago.. Lost it when I lost myself, and became all that everyone else wanted me to be. And now, I've tried to return, but perhaps.. Perhaps kindness is no longer my game.. Time now to show the world, whatever I want to be. Do you care that I was here? Probably not. Did you care, when my life shattered? Doubt it. Hell, do you care now, reading this journal. I bet it's only because you want me to feel like we're friends.. Are we? Or aren't we? You always say it's up to me. But it really isnt. I know what you think, it's just my emo rant? Well it's too bad, I no longer care for what you think. All I have to say is too bad. He's died a long time ago... Or maybe just tonight.. Delial here.. No one else.. But don't worry, i'm sure you're not going to worry about this change. You never even knew who I really was, am, or will be.

Posted by: Scott Illudus Delial Wed Mar 12, 2008 @ 08:14am

Esste! Amazing! Go see! Find her! She made this! Thank you so much!

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ShatteredAngel08
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Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 09:50pm


	Well, if you hide yourself away then we'll never get to know who or how you are sweetie.

Commented on: Mon Mar 17, 2008 @ 10:13pm


	You have always known who you are, so please don't say that you're unsure of who you are. Scott hasn't died...and he never will dear. We are friends, and whether you want to admit it or not, I'll always be here for you. I may not know who you totally are, but I knew who you were...and that was an upbeat guy who I adored and cherished. It will take time for you to come back to your old self, but I will pray every night that you do. Never forget that I care Scott...

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Selete
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Commented on: Tue Mar 18, 2008 @ 02:41am


	Who you trust is up to you. Like it or not, friendship is a two-way street, and Identity is a chosen virtue. It's a virtue which is confusing as ********, and very difficult, but it's still largely chosen. I have no idea what happened to you, and I'm only mildly curious right now. (You'd prefer honesty, wouldn't you? This is a semi-public journal full of honest sentiments.) I don't know whether we're friends or not. I have no reason for you to believe we are unless we both want to be. If we were friends, I would care, because I care how my friends feel. But we won't be until WE become friends. You have more power than you will ever know, and that's partially because you will use some of your own power to stop yourself from knowing. This is what we do with ourselves. When we're depressed, we don't want to stop being depressed until we get sick of it. Maybe you're different, I don't know yet, I've had no opportunity to see. You do have the opportunity to look at yourself, though, to ask that question. I wonder what answer you'll come up with... but that's only idle curiosity. And that's how I know that I'm missing something.

Commented on: Tue Jun 30, 2009 @ 01:32pm


	ear droopy this was around when we met I think.... what happened to you?

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