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I sometimes wonder who I really am, if I have a purpose, will I do great things or maybe bad things, I have hurt people and yet even my enemies I want to protect. Wouldn't it be great if you could live alone, that way you couldn't hurt people or be hurt by others and yet I dont want to be alone because maybe Mans greatest ability is his ability to love like no other, I hate people and yet I love them, you aren't ever alone because as you meet people you gain memories, plus you can't be alone because there are many you's, people see you differently, so an individule is formed each time you meet someone. God I sound emo. I sometimes wish I could be free but true freedom is death because it is a black hole, but I dont want to be alone and yet I do. Who am I? What am I? Love is a bond that only ends in destruction right? What about that fairytale ending? Does it exist or is it that people can never truley understand each other because life is a journey into discovering yourself. Who am I? I am me, me an individule, there are many me's in peoples heart. What am I? A vessel for a soul, what happens to you when you die? You decay, your vessel severing your link to Earth. Every night I wish I would die, but I dont want to because I want to atleast be loved when I die. The truth is no-one can truley hate themselves without first feeling love. I am so confused and the world is ablur, what is happening to me? I will not die because compassion is the key to survival. I want to tell people how I t hink truely but I cannot it is a defense mechanism because I'm so scared of being hurt.