It feels like ive known you for the longest time
as long as my life in this pixelated work i count as my life
even thouh this isnt face to face its akward almost all the time
but it feels like real life
and my voice is just the tapping of the keyboard keys
and your voice is what i hear from my heart
even when im sitting here in the cold damp basement
and can only see you throuh the screen
i still feel warm and i feel like life isnt really as basic as i thouht
We dont see eachother at all
and hardly talk but we can still feel Heartbreak,betrayal,deppresion,love,happiness, and all in between
but all i keep as a momento is just one image on the screen and several in my heart cause what i know
i can never forget everyone that made me feel like ive had meaning
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She dosnt love me,
but many others like me,
and i break there heart,
telling them that im waiting for just one,
i didnt mean to give out that pain to them,
but i still get that pain back,
ten times as it feels,
and i feel like drowning in my own blood,
swallowing a knife to hope i die,
but if she isnt there,
to see what i meant and felt,
then there would have been no point,
I also feel that someone should grab a rock and hit me in the head,
at least till i forget,
Twenty virgins wont be good enough for me in heaven,
because heaven will still be a hell for me,
without her,
im crying blood and feeling emptiness inside of me,
is more painful then a stab in the back,
it will be thanked for,
i just want my wish to happen,
before i die,
but this will pass up to heaven along with me,
one kiss and a bit of love from her is all i need,
and then i wont mind hell,
but i will still love to be with her here.
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I wish you could've stayed with me,
even a little longer
so you could hold me close and keep my safe
and shield me from the sky that cries around us.
Someday, maybe,
you'll return and take my hand,
and lead me through this world of pain and misery,
back to the light I once knew.
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Loves memory has traced our outline in this place.
But will the spider remember, or the sun?
Did the water capture our faces in permanence?
Does the wind create us anew as it blows?
Did the shadows from the trees record our passage beneath them?
Our secret been revealed.
Yet I have told no other.
I write these words in silence, in mute testimony
To what once was.
But our image remains alive in this place.
It can not be removed.
You, me,
We then,
Were here.
We saw the day and hoped for tomorrow.
We caught a brief glimpse of love's promise.
We were not liars,
But thieves of time.
For now time has now forgotten us,
Yet our memory lingers, and love remembers
This place that was ours.
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I sit here cold,
from no one beside me,
here to hold me,
and keep me warm,
sadness is creeping deep into my heart,
and i still try to break throuh,
trying to get to her,
trying to get her love,
she stands away from me,
and it leaves me here with only one thing to do,
is to cry here,
waiting for someone to listen to my woe,
nothing is working,
and for some reson i keep on trying,
the same old thing,
and the same old thing always happens,
i can never face the answer i dont want to hear,
and i look throuh eyes that show me lies,
and i try to accept that,
because i fear the future,
and all i want,
is one thing to bring me salvation,
im always going to be trying to have a happy ending,
i see it in my dreams,
and in my heart,
a light the dosnt seem to be there,
so i walk towards it,
just waiting for sympathy.
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If one day you faded away,
from the ones you love,
my heart will strain,
and our feelings would fade,
into the darkness to haunt you,
to where you faded,
but in the dimness,
ill be hiding,
following you where you cant see me,
with my eyes blood shot with misery,
trying to reach you,
trying to bring you back,
it it doesn't work I will will keep on trying,
till when i fade along with you,
no matter what,
I'll be with you.
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i find it hard at times
to stop thinking of you
something so simple
and yet i can not quit
there r times
when i can not stop
and times when i cant stand to
others tell me i dont need you
i dont think i can b without
i dont want to be without
without you that is
slowl sinking into depression
my smiles turn to frownz
that no one can break
except you
but im starting to think
that i been here all along
on this hook you got me on
i cant escape
i cant breathe
i think ill die here
