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In my daily life, I'm usually a pretty happy, upbeat person. But here lately...I don't know...
This place doesn't feel like home anymore. Feels like I'm in hostile territory. I'm getting birdworked in trying to purchase a tux, and I'm getting screwed at work. And last night, I found myself...jealous. What the heck?!
Why am I jealous? I have more than I could ever dream! I have intellect, innocence, and health...but most of all, I have Love! Why am I letting this jealousy bring me down like it has?!

I look at my profile, and I see a recurring theme...

"You Are the Ace of Hearts...
...You are sentimental, and your emotions are very deep.
You are easily swept away and easily hurt...."

"Your Eyes Should Be Brown...
...What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart "

"You Are Rain...
...You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming..."

"Your Superpower Should Be Manipulating Fire...
...passionate.
Your emotions are unpredictable - and they often get the better of you...
...Your biggest problem as a superhero: Your moodiness would make it difficult to control your powers "

I seem to let my emotions hold me more than anything. If I were to be either Jedi or Sith, I'm almost certain I'd be a Sith Lord.
The question is, how can I control my emotions? I don't want to feel like I do sometimes...put bluntly, it hurts. And it's not just hurtful to me. When I get jealous, I feel like I'm also accusing her of something...and I know full well she's not.

Damnit, if this voice in the back of my head doesn't shut up, I swear I'm getting some toothpicks...