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WHY WON'T ANYONE RESPOND TO THE QUESTIONS AS POSTED ON ENTRY #13?!?!?! gonk gonk gonk


*sighs* Well going on... hmm... Kitty helped me change my banner so that the pictures change... hey, Kitty, if you're reading this, how DID you come across that site anyway? And did you teach yourself that?

English tomorrow... that won't be pretty... you think if I stab myself with an arrow and pretend that God's pissed off with me that she'll allow me to not attend class? *sighs* Too much Johnathan Edwards.

I figured out that I'm doing pretty horrible in Self-Defense. Not that that's a regular part of my daily curriculum mind you, but it's a hobby. *shrugs* My mind just feels chaotic and s**t. At least sensei gave me some good advice about venting and whatnot. Writing in journals and summat.

O.o Too much Harry Potter.

Oh and another thing. People, if you are reading this entry, on entries that are VERY personal WILL have a label in the title of the entry saying that it is so. I understand that because I cannot just MAKE you not read it, I will just have to trust that you will respect my wishes. I am well aware that you will probably click on the entry anyway so that settles the predicament of risk.

*exhales sharply* Ever get that feeling where everything is out of your countrol? That you, in essence, have no control over anything. That you are very much so a lesser piece of mass then you really think?

Note: Rhetorical questions are very nifty things.

And ever get the feeling where you are completely useless? That you don't want to even live because where's the purpose of that? You are merely wasting a good amount of air that can be breathed in by a person with a better heart and soul than you.

I am also aware that this is taking a rather suicidal tone but bear with me. I am merely "venting" as many of my close confidants call it.

And what is love, I mean really? Is it truly an emotion? Does it truly exist? Or is it the mere pheromones that act within one's body? Unconditional love, therefore, should have nothing to do with physical attraction (which shall be considered, within this mentality, as merely a side benefit) and should exist within the mind, not the heart for does the heart truly feel emotion? Or is it all within the mind?

The center of our human anatomy. The nucleus of the cell that is our mortal vessel. The control center of what is as powerful as the Pentagon itself? The human can do extraordinary things whether it be for good or for bad.

And then we get into the controversial subject of what is good and what is bad? What defines evil and what defines righteousness? Does doing whatever it takes to survive necessarily evil? Or is just merely human instinct? What can justify the killing of one person if to save your own life?

Note: Yes, I'm well aware that I'm asking a shitload of questions. Again, bear with me or do yourself a favor. Get out of here.

*sighs* I suppose this makes sense and then again doesn't. It depends on who you are, I guess. Whether or not any one of these questions have any substance or of any legilimate stand, it does not matter and it is expendable. My thoughts are merely creations of my mind, which will inevitably grow old and then collapse into the glorious age of decadence where I will deteriorate into an old withering woman.