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I don't get it. My little sister is so ******** moody all day. I wish she would die because she's a total b***h. I mean honestly I tell her to turn the ******** television down but noooo she has to go and start crying and yelling at me and s**t. I mean what the ********? I don't get it. Oh well like I give a damn. Just as long as I don't have to bother with it.

More on the plate of s**t I am just so stressed lately and I don't get why. I mean there's not much going on but I'm feeling....stressed...wait I know why. It's because ti's almost christmas break. Christmas break every year gets me worried. I worry that all my friends will change and be different. This year I worry most about two people. One is not so much because I'm pretty confident I won't shoo him away...Ryan and Zack. I'm worried about them. Ryan is the not so much because I'm sure he'll come back and we'll still be close friends...but I'm worried that Zack will come back and won't like me. I don't want that. It make me want to cry just thinking about it.

I know it sounds unreasonable but it's true that I think these things every year. Like last year I had a break down in art right before we were going to leave for break. I've had one before. I don't quite know why I get that emotional but I do. When I get back though I plan on forcing myself to ask a question I'm scared to ask...well possibly about a week or two after we get back because it would be a little too quick to do that. But if it's no then that's fine but it will hurt a little to be fully honest. (Don't you dare ask....unless you're courtney or nikki. Ryan if you're reading this I will not tell you. No matter how much you pry lol)