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Waiting for a call to come for me....Yepp....Just waiting....That horrible sinking feeling setting in and so is that Ahh my brain hurts and I wanna kill everyone and turn into the Hulk and stomp them to pieces feeling.I dunno something about some things that have been said that makes me wonder about life and all that philosopical stuff.I'm weird like that I guess.
Blah,I've been chatting again on YIM I haven't done that in forever.I can bearly even get a chat room open anymore LOL
It took me like an hour to figure it out and set up my profile which I think is still shotty.

"Do you think That I can get some?Maybe just a little Uh Uh?"

Harrrrr!!!! *Beats ehad against wall* I've been here all weekend on the computer! Someone call me! I'm even all Yaoied out! O.o'' I've read a 20 chapter fanfiction O.o''
Now that's scary for me O.o'' Blah I've been cursing all day too.Strange complex no?

Snow makes me quiet my brain down though.I pull a Kat so to speak and walk around and stuff when it snows.Maybe I'll get lucky find a fairy ring and disappear and run around laughing ect.
I need tro stop eating before bed,It makes me have even weirder thoughts I suppose.......

I have no rythe or reason to my thought process I know.But It's my process so whatever I suppose........It's like I wanna rant and scare people but I can't so I leave giant leaps in what I type.Maybe I should listen to Kat and just go bonkers on everyone once and a while.But last time that didn't go over well at all now did it?Maybe it's just the weather messing with me. I hate Holidays.Always have.BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAHBLAH BLAH!
The phone is a wonderful horrible invention I can hear but cannot touch,I can talk but cannot see them listen.Why can't we all be like Demolistion man?
IT'S THE b***h OF LIVING!
BEING SOMEONE YOU CAN'T STAND!


God, I dreamed there was an angel
Who could hear me through the wall
As I cried out-like, in Latin
"This is so not life at all
Help me out-out-of this nightmare"
Then I heard her silver call-
She said: "Just give it time, kid
I come to one and all"

She said: "Give me that hand, please
And the itch you can't control
Let me teach you how to handle
All the sadness in your soul
Oh, we'll work that silver magic
Then we'll aim it at the wall"
She said: "Love may make you blind kid-
But I wouldn't mind at all"

It's the b***h of living
(b***h, just a b***h)
With nothing but your hand
(Just a b***h, yeah)
Just the b***h of living
As someone you can't stand

See, each night, it's like fantastic-
Tossing, turning, without rest
'Cause my days at the piano
With my teacher and her breasts;
And the music's like the one thing
I can even get at all
And those breasts!
I mean, God, please
Just let those apples fall

It's the b***h of living
(ah, ah, ah)
With nothing going on
(Nothing going on)
Just the b***h of living
Asking: what went wrong?

Do they think we want this?
Oh- who knows?

See, there's showering in gym class...

Bobby Maler, he's the best
Looks so nasty in those khakis

God, my whole life's like some test

Then there's Marianna Wheelan
As if she'd return my call

It's like just kiss some a**, man
Then you can screw 'em all

Alllllllll

It's the b***h of living

It's the b***h of living

And living in your head

In your head
It's the b***h

Of living
And sensing God is dead

It's the b***h of living

You watch me-
Just watch me-

And trying to get ahead

I'm calling you one day

It's the b***h of living
Just getting out of bed

All will know

It's the b***h of living
Living, Living

All will know

And getting what you get
It's the b***h of living

And knowing this is it

God, is this it?
This can't be it
Oh God, what a b***h!