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A- Accidents
01. Have you ever been in a car accident? Yes. A small one.
02. Do you have a lot of scars? I have 3 or 4 significant ones.
03. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone? No. That's not an accident.
04. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake? No.
05. Have you ever had stitches? Yes. Twice I've had stitches on my head.

B - Beauty
06. Do you consider yourself beautiful? I guess parts of me are. I think I'm cute.
07. Are you self conscious of how you look? Usually about my weight.
08. Do you put on a lot of make-up? No.
09. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? No. Only a breast reduction.
10. What do you think makes a person beautiful? Eyes and smile make a person beautiful. That's to me though.

C - Consequences
11. What was the longest amount of time you've been grounded for? Maybe 3 days.
12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion? I would keep it and raise it. Abortion is out for me, and adoption is highly unlikely.
13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people? Yes. I sometimes worry way too much about that.
14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you? If someone were to take my family and boy friend and best friend away from me, that would be my ultimate punishment.
15. What is one thing you wish you didn't do, just because it wasn't worth it in the end? I can't believe how terribly I treated the person I love when they never deserved it. It still hurts me and weighs on my conscience to this moment.

D- Dealing
16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them? I will ignore the person the majority of the time. I will sometimes blow up at them and use insults they don't understand.
17. Name a time when you had to be strong. When my parents separated it was really bad... that's not a time I like reliving.
18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting? Any kind of abuse at home? Ha. I just sort of mentioned that, and my dad used to be a jerk, but things are good with my parents and their marriage now.
19. When people at school don't accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react? I usually feel bad and want to cry, but I rarely do. I mainly tell myself the people don't matter and ignore them.
20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Explain how you got through it. Yes, but it wasn't really anyone close.

E - Experience
21. Have you ever had a job? Any volunteer jobs? No payed jobs yet, but I've volunteered in libraries and worked for school bookfairs for 4 years and been paid in merchandise.
22. Do you think that you are sexually experienced, or not at all? I am not sexually experienced. I really don't want to deal with that right now.
23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far? I would say I have, but not so other people know about it. I smetimes just let things build up in my head really badly and they end up hurting me.
24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)? I am not ready.
25. How old do you act? I hardly act younger than my age. Most people in my highschool thought I was a junior last year as a sophomore and a senior this year as a junior.Adults tell me I act pretty mature, but I don't think they've seen all of me.

F - Family
26. Is there anyone in your family you don't talk to? Basically, everyone that doesn't live in my house with me.
27. If you had to choose, family or friends? HAD to choose? Family. But, my best friend and boyfriend are my family.
28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything? Virtually. There is only one thing I couldn't tell my mother.
29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them? I have two sisters. I have gotten jealous of them. It's normal.
30. How often do you spend 'quality time' with family members? I do every day, but less with my dad who works a lot.

G - Growing
31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were? Im 5 foot 2 and wish I was 5 foot 4
32. Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that? Physically, no, but in other ways, I would say yes. A big yes.
33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish? I'm pretty mature. I wish I wasn't.
34. Are you scared to think that one day you will turn 30, then 40, then 50? Yes. That's partly where my anxiety stems from.
35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn? Yes. In fact, I hope I do.

H - Hope
36. Love - real or not? REAL. It's maybe the most real thing in the world.
37. Are you a pessimist or an optimist? I actually try to be an optimist, but a lot of the time, the pessimist just comes to the surface.
38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way? You can believe in both! There is fate, but it's up to us to do things a certain way.
39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? Yes.
40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying? I remember those few wonderful people and little enjoyable things in life that make it worth living.

I I- Issues
41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/lonliness? I do, but I've never been evaluated so I haven't been diagnosed. It does run in my family.
42. Do you have any type of disease or disability? No.
43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex? I'm in a relationship with someone I've known over 3 years. Before him, my luck was awful. I knew how to pick them ther winners, I did!
44. Do you think that you are alone in this world? Sometimes, but no one is EVER truly understood the way they can understand themself.
45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away? I think of death every day and it's been a problem for me. It does interrupt my life.

J - Jokes
46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends (an inside joke). "You took my skittles! Now I'll never taste your rainbow!"
47. Are you usually the one making people laugh, or the other way around? If I do it, it's with a pun or by accident which hapens a lot. I think it's a tie.
48. Do you cry when you laugh hard? Yes.
49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day. One moment was when my sis, friend, boyfriend, and I played out in the rain at night. My friend ran up behind me and tackled me to the grass yeling "This is Sparta!" I was on the ground all soaked, then I said, "I don't like Sparta anymore."
50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class? Sometimes I get in trouble with my German teacher.

K - Knowledge
51. The purpose of school: To learn, both socially and academically. But who says that's what actually happens?
52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average? Smart. Some call me Genius or a ******** genius...
53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark)? And the lowest? A and a D
54. What was your last average? This year would you like to maintain it or aim higher? My last average was 3.33 so B ish I guess. I am trying to make it a little higher by quitting chemistry.
55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)? Art is my favorite, but I also love, love, love my U.S. History Nuclear Era Class, especially when we got into counterculture, hippies, civil and women's rights.

L - Love
56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before? Yes. First time ever. And it took a lot of time for me.
57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)? Yes.
58. Is love worth it? Yes, it is.
59. Do you hate it when girls in their young teenage years say they 'love' someone that they've been dating for a few months? Yes. 99.9% aren't in love and just want sex, but I won't rule out the possibility of love for a few of those girls.
60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word? I actually just typed that a few back. It takes a lot for me. It's hard for me to trust then love someone.

M - Money
61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round? Yes.
62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money? Above average.
63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to? I guess maybe I'm planning to.
64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with? Oh, I would rather have the person. I hate that that always sounds like a lie, but it isn't.
65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you? 7, but it's mostly because I think I want a family.

N - Naughty
66. Are you a virgin? Yes.
67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you're not going out with? I don't really like the idea for me, but to each his/her own.
68. Do you know anybody you consider a 'slut'? What makes you say that? Yes. A girl I won't name who used to be a pretty close friend for about 3 years.
69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more? Or are you okay with everything you have done? I want to erase the way I treated the person I love. I was horibble and I hate myself sometimes for what I did. I would also like to have not wasted so much time on boys who treated me like I didn't matter.
70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? You can't say both! Nice.

O- Openness
71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone? It depends on who it is.
72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone? I don't have a set amount of time for that, but it's not just automatic for me.
73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason? Yes.
74. When are you comfortable with someone sexually? I ca't really answer that.
75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what's the limit of what you can tell them? I can say the majority of what Im feeling to them, but sometimes they don't really HEAR me. Even though I always hear and try to help.

P - Positive
76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn't necessarily end positively? Yes.
77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all? Yeah.
78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be? I try to be an optimist, but pessimism is more me I guess.
79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything? No. Not everything. But usually yes.
80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? I'm sure I have.

Q- Questions
81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself? I ask for help if I know someone around me that I trust will be there to help me, otherwise it's just my own mind.
82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation? A lot. I don't like to think about it right now.
83. Do you think the government is truthful? If you could ask the president one question, what would it be? Not really truthful. I would ask him if he could please take his head out of his a**, learn to pronounce nuclear, then stop ******** over the country.
84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go? I don't know.
85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to? What happens to all those people who just seem to disappear?

R - Respect
86. How do you show respect? I help people, call them hon and don't treat them badly.
87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them? They can do a lot of things, but I don't want to state them all.
88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures? I respect my parents and a few teachers, but as a whole I don't really have respect for these so-called authority figures.
89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment? I get slapped sometimes and maybe grounded. They will not allow me to see certain people as well.
90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness? I think I'm mean back usually.

S - School
91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into? I'm a junior/11th grade.
92. When will you graduate high school/college? June 2009.
93. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do? I want to do art of some kind or maybe be a psychologist.
94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it? I hate the people. They are sheep and laught at EVERYTHING! I love the art classes and newspaper and even the food. I hate that we have only one or two classrooms with windows because the school was supposed to be a prison.
95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school? Nope.

T- Temptation
96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay? Yes.
97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it? I've been pressured, but I have never done anything like that.
98. Did you ever cheat on someone? Why did you do it? NO.
99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn't really know or love? What did you end up doing? No.
100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independant and strong willed? I'm actually very strong willed when it involves sexual activity.

U - Unique
101. Would you rather blend in with the crowd or stand out? Stand out.
102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it? No. Unless it's something fun that won't get me killed or in trouble.
103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces? I wear the clothes I like. People will vouch for that.
104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex? No.
105. What makes you different from people your age? I am always being asked for advice and vented to by people. I'm very mature. I listen to weird music, and I get depressed by the mall and shopping in normal stores.

V - Value
106. What's the most expensive thing in your room? My stereo I think... or maybe the library I have. razz
107. What's more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people? I don't like that question. I'm not mean or selfish, but I'm scared.
108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you? I don't know.
109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab? My cat if she was near me.
110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future? No. If I have children, that will always be more vvaluable to me.

W - Wishes
111. If you had three wishes, what would they be?
I would wish away racism, ageism, homophobia, and all discrimination, then I'd want to make sure all people would have everything they needed to be happy, icluding love, then I'd want to wish for a way to make me hapier and worry less.
112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones? Iwould actually choose my loved ones, because then if they were happy they could make me happy.
113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them? Yes.
114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish? I have. it involves a Bunny.
115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that's meant to happen, will happen? NO!

X - Xanga
116. Name all your Xanga's here. Can't remember.
117. Name everything you post on your Xanga. N/A
118. How often do you update, check your subscribers/comments, and change your layout? N/A
119. How many subscribers and subscriptions do you have? N/A
120. The greatest thing about Xanga? N/A

Y - You
121. Are you more independant or social? Independent.
122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it? People and animals hurting in any way and destruction of our planet.
123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things? Yes. But I'm afraid of life.
124. What kind of person would you be if you didn't have guidance from family members, God, teachers, etc.? Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life? My family is a little racist and homophobic, but I'm the entire opposite! I hate all those -isms!
125. Do you think people are generally good? I do.

Z - Zest
126. Are you currently happy with your life? Why or why not?
I'm happy with some of my friends and my boyfriend. I guess I am.
127. Are you more outgoing, ready for anything, or boring and shy? I'm not exactly outgoing. I'm shy, but most people don't call me boring.
128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it? I am scared, but I usually think I'm excited at first.
129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people? Trying new things is usuall cool with me, but the people thing rarely works out for me. I love to have new people in my life if possible though.
130. What is the most motivational thing in the world? Wanting to be happy and make an affect on someone they way I've been affected by someone.

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