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Dear Secret Crush,

I see you go by everyday and I just want to cry.
Knowing you love her and want only her it makes me feel like I want to die.

Right now my life is awful and I can hardly bear it,
Right now I feel like a horrible person and I think I look like a ferret.

I need you right now, if I don't I will die

I'm nothing without you, that's why I can only cry
Do you know how hard it is to look you straight in the eye?

To talk to you and give you a high five and feel like I can fly?

To dance and sing a happy song because you called me back?

Then cry in my pillow because she wont cut me any slack?

Then watch you two together and feel like part of me is gone?

What the hell did I do wrong?

Did I hurt you somehow?

Did I hurt her?

Am I a horrible person who deserves this pain?

My life is messed up,
It's not just you I'm not a drama queen
I just want it to end
I just want to come out of this and still have a couple of friends.

I need you right now in my life
I need you right now
But all I have is a knife

I need to be me again but I don't know how
That's why I'm asking you to help me now.