I'm still very depressed as always.
I've been thinking a lot, and I've noticed that..., I'm really hardly like any normal people at all...I'm unfit for the living. as I have thought I should have just been a doll or something that doesn't move....I'm slipping further away into my own realization of what I'm truely like. I've noticed that I'll probably not find anyone for me...I'm just too different. and don't go trying to cheer me up with "I'm SURE you will!! zaria please don't be so depressed!" I truely appreciate the great concern from the little amount of people that care about me, but unless you can help me find someone for someone as strange and old world-ish as I, words just won't do much good for me....I'm sorry..but its the truth..as I stated before...its just getting worse with my own realization....of my true self....I'm sorry but I can't get better just as fast as the blink of an eye...
Even if I did find someone,..I'd be too afraid to trust them in fear they would be lying to me again....I'm so sad right now...I don't know what to do....I'll never know what to do anymore....I wish I could just have that special someone here with me now to just make everything go away and tell me everythings going to be alright and just shade me from the world so I could be happy.....thats what someone I could truely love would do for me...,and if they wanted to be hidden from the world, I would protect them too.........I just....need somebody before I slip even farther into depressionful insanity...
 Elemental guardian Zaria · Wed Nov 21, 2007 @ 11:02pm · 1 Comments |
