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today. was the dance. the last one. i dont even know what to say about it. i made out with ed. yes. i did. i was dancing with him and he asked me "do you still like me?" and i said yes... and then he leaned down and kissed me! i think just about everyone (except for the teachers...lol) saw it. then he kinda ignored me for the rest of the time.... and was dancing with breeana... oh my god i hope shes not mad at me, cuz i couldnt stand it if she was... but i hurt soooo bad right now... cuz one of my best friends is mad at me and it happened again. what exactly happened again, you may ask? well.... the exact same thing that promped me to write my last entry. tomarrow ed's gonna act like he never kissed me. just ignore me. just like kevin, just like every other guy ive known. use and ditch me. WHY does this keep happening? because. im. gullible.


i used to know what happiness felt like. when i was going out with logan such a long time ago. the best feeling in the world. to know somebody out there cares for who you are.

well, logan lied to me the entire time, so nevermind...

but... still.... i used to be happy... i just fake it now...

... i dont want to go to school tomarrow. i just cant face everybody.

... i have to though, i have to blow you all away with my fantastic violin playing.

i cant face ed and breeana tomarrow.

mckenzie was talking to me on the phone. saying that breeana still likes ed and that they make a fantastic couple.

all of you have 10 minutes to stop me from ending this.