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I'm just feeling...well...I can't explain.

So many things I'll miss after this Friday...
The practically 13 hour school day due to band...(yeah, seriously.)
All the randomness...
One of the few places I actually fit in...

It would seem that recently I've been able to relate to less and less people about things.
I can't help it if the only thing I can think of is band sometimes...
Plus my own stupid attraction to Mangus...
Why is it that I always end up getting crushes on upperclassmen?
Maybe it's because I haven't known them for ever and such?

Or maybe there's something I'm not getting here...

To put it as I think of how I'm feeling currently...

There's few parts of my heart which haven't been steel-plated. My mother always finds them and throws something pointy at them.

But recently it would seem that something has lit a flame in my spirit and is melting it away.
Wish I knew why, or how on earth to stop it...

Oye, this is just my being really confused as to everything I once knew being deformed into something entirely different.
As different as...well... cheese_whine