Since J came to live with us,
my life has been turned upside down and I hate it.
And i'm beginning to hate him. Not him as a person, but I hate what he's done to me. I dont want him here anymore.
But neither me nor mum will see him out on the street.
But I want him gone, and I want my sanity and my strange, pathetic little world BACK the way it was.
I dont love him, i'm not in love with him.
No ifs and or buts about it.
It aint gonna happen.
And right now i'm even doubting if we're still even friends.
Ever since he came my fathers forgotten all i ever said to him about how important this computer and Gaia are to me - he doesnt care anymore, and because the maximum time i get on here now is 2 hours a day - and i'm losing it... becuase i no longer have an outlet.
I'm seriously losing it...
Stressed at Work because my boss is an utter idiot and i'm bored out of my mind. Stressed at home and NO ONE to tell about it.
Cant tell mum and dad.
Can only tell Sonja, and i'm sure shes tired of hearing my whining.
Its at the point now that even though work is driving me nuts, id rather stay there extra hours, or wander the city streets at night then come home anymore.
I hate this, I feel as though I'M the adopted or Foster child here.
Whether he meant to or not J's taken everything from me, piece by peice and i've had enough.
J this is for you.
Your choice is this.
You can accept that I'm not in love with you, nor will i ever love you that way, and we can start over again and be friends.
Or i can treat you as no more than a border.
If you choose the latter we will only communicate to the bare minimum and I will ignore you otherwise.
I will also put a lock on my door and bar myself in and YOU out.
Make your choice...
Raven Skaari Community Member 
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