Is my neck broken am i dead. or better yet is this a dream. id love to wake up and this would be all a dream. no not a dream a night mare a horrible nightmare. but this seering pain, this hurt, it has to be real! if this was a dream i would have woken up by now. this pain is torture its impossible. it cant be a dream this is real. the cold hard truth. the world is a horrible place
I cant hear her cries for help. i cant move. i try to turn around i try to speak. i cant there is something wrong with my brain i know it. laying on the hard wood floor i know this ending cant be a happy one. why is he doing this this to her she hasn't done any thing but love him. he has hurt her and i wanna break his neck. i want to put him in the pain hes put on Carah and me.
it was so unfair. i am suddenly mad at Carah for being so stupid. how could she have trusted him, how could she have picked him over me. i wouldn't hurt her like that. i wouldn't betray her like he has. she has put herself in danger. no one around to save her but me, i try again to speak. only to fail. slowly i gain feeling in my hands. slowly and as painfully as it was. i inched my hand towards the nearest thing i could find my cell. i did the only thing i could do, i thrust it with all the strength i had left. being injured and all my throw was pathetic. towards the hall way. to make some noise to show any one we're here. any one out there, there has to be someone else in the house there has to be.
no one comes. no one hears. i wonder if any one cares. theres gotta be some one, theres gotta be an alternative to this ending. i just gotta find it. i love her and i cant let her be hurt any more. i am over filled with anger. i wanna yell at him but i cant, i wanna get up and rip his head off his shoulders show him what i'm made of. but i cant for one i am injured and and second i'm pathetic, afraid of everything. how can i be her hero if i'm so afraid.
how is she so brave how does she go through every day with a smile. when i can hardly go through a day with out a frown. i want to be there for her i wanna have faith in her, but how can i do that if dont even have faith in myself.
i lift my hand searching for another fairly heavy object to throw at the door. but soon enough i see what i've been waiting for all along. shadows under the door. feet i see them i want them to come to the door. how do they know where in here. i want to chuck the heaviest thing i can find. no luck. thats it. i want this so bad. i want her to be safe. i want this living night mare to end. I open my mouth take the deepest breath my lungs will allow. and i yell. pain shoots through my brain, through my neck, through my throat, through every spot that i was punched and kicked on. i was beat up and worn down. i close my eyes.
 zssser · Sat Oct 27, 2007 @ 02:59pm · 2 Comments |
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