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Well, I have a lot to talk about today, but I'll try to be as brief as possible. I'll start with my friend Ally. She's a really good friend of mine that I met at my high school at the begining of this year. We were introduced by my friend Kevin, who has been one of my best friends since the fifth grade. I heard her talking about Gaia one day at lunch, and I told her that I had an account. Now we've both met up on Gaia through each other's profiles. Her username's I_Like_Fishie_Crackers, look her up. She's really cool.

Something else that's really great is that my three month anniversary with my girlfriend is comming up. I'm so excited! I just talked to Kayla(my girlfriend) on Sunday, and I still miss her so much! I spend every minute of every day thinking about her, and I'm not exagerating! I can't stop thinking of her! Our anniverary is on the twenty-sixth. She already has a present for me, but I'm getting hers later today. I'm not saying what I'm giving her because I don't want her to read this and find out.

Well, not everything's great. I really messed up today. My friends were trying to set up these two people that liked each other. I kind of knew the girl. She had cute stuff written about him on her binder, so without thinking I said, "Show him your binder!" The poor girl ran away in embarrasment. I feel so terrible! She said that she's not mad at me and she forgives me, but I still feel like I'm a terrible person. I've never been tested for depression, but it runs in my family and I've had symptoms of it since I was ten. After that incident I just wanted to cause myself physical pain. My mom promised to get me a counciler, but she always says that and never does it. I feel like crap right now. 40% because of what I did to that girl, and 60% because I miss Kayla so much.