You don't care do you? They're the only ones that matter any more. Oh sure, it's totally impossible for me to be bearing pain... How would you feel if you knew you were cause of the burden of their pain? The reason it existed in someone's heart? Of course you don't care, you're just trying to increase the guilt. What makes you think that I have no sense of pain? Why is it that only they matter? Maybe they've just replaced me... I guess it's what I deserve. I don't deserve a friend as good as you. Someone who came into my life and saved me. Took me away from this shallow world. You may not have meant to do it, but you did. It makes me so scared when I think about being replaced, because I know that there's no one else like you in this world. No one to be a better friend. I don't have to put myself in his place and imagine you leaving just to feel his pain, I already feel it.
And you two, I'm sorry for all the pain I have caused. It the fear of causing even more pain that makes it impossible for me to come back. If I come back, and it doesn't work out, the pain will just increase for you. Just forget this witch ever came into your lives.
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