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So... Monday, I was 'sick' and didn't go to school.. I just felt so weak.
I mean.. I had to deal with my mom, brother and her friend bitching at me and calling me retarded and saying they want me dead all that night.. so I cryed in my sleep while they kept telling me to shut up.
D:
Anyways.. I took all of Monday off and slept the day away.. even though I had to deal with my b***h of a mother. I remebered that tuesday.. the 25th, [yesterday] would be the day that the Play Auditions would be! Then I freaked out!!
I had to memorise 3 monolouges for the next day! So I crammed it all in while I was constantly rehearsing in my garage from like 10 p.m- 1 a.m.
Of course I went to sleep and tryed to wake up early.. so I set my alarm clock to 5:00. But that was a bad idea.. 'cuase the b***h hit me and verbaly abused me in the morning for waking her up too early.
Dx
Before that.. I woke up feeling soo sick.. like I had the flu..
I felt like I had to throw up.. I didn't know if I was actually sick.. or just soo nervous.
Anyways.. I left the house crying to my-self as usual.. and went on with my day.
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Since I was sick the previous day.. I had ALOT of make-up work... but I didn't care.. all I could think about the WHOLe day were the auditions.
When ever I had time.. I sliently practiced the lines to my-self.. acting out the motions.. which of course made me look like a crazy person to other people.
^^;
Anywho.. it was finally the end of the day.
Everyone gave me so many compliments on what I was wearing and how I looked that day because I tryed to like my very best! My theater teacher says that first impressions are everything! So I had to look wonderful!
<3
I had forgotten to tell my bitchy mom that I had to stay after school 'till around 4 p.m.. but I didn't care about that either. I went to the lobby and met some of my friends there who were also auditioning! We helped eachother practice our monolouges and stuff... since I had three of 'em.. I had the hardest job.
D:
btw.. I was trying out for Tina Jo/Gina Jo [the twins] or Frankie. [the play is Dearly Beloved] I suddenly found out from someone that you have to have a song prepared if you want a singing role. So I started freaking out 'cuase I had no idea I had to have a song!! I automatically found one though.. it's 'Once Upon A December' from Anastasia the movie. I always wanted to sing that song infront of others.. and I love it so much.. so it was perfect for me!
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Anyways.. after hours and hours of rehearsing, singing, and panic attacks.. it was finally My turn to audition.
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Surpisingly.. I wasn't hyper-ventalating!
>w<
I asked my teacher, Mrs. Santanello if we really needed to sing for our audition.. and she looked at my 'papers' and said.. "You have been in choir since 2nd grade... you've been in honors choir, your in the Columbus Symphony Choir?!? Luana, if your in the Columbus Symphony Choir.. I'm sure you can sing! Your fine!"
xD
Soo.. I just acted really polite.. 'like always' and did my thang..
My first monolouge was tina Jo/Honey Raye. hey seemed to like that one.. [Mrs. Santanello helped me with it and acted as Honey Raye.] Next was Frankie.. I liked that on the best.. I did well! They liked it too! And third was Gina Jo.. I did good on that monolouge too.
In the end.. they.. [and by they I mean, Mrs. Santanello, my theater teacher, and .. uh. I forgot his name, but he was the theater Tech Master guy, person! He's awesome. xD] had 'impressed' looks on their faces. I was awaiting other instructions.. like, my other friends said that they had to do cold reading and stuff.. but the directors said.. "Heh, I think that's all we needed to see! Thank You!" And I said thankyou, and left with a smile on my face. I don't know if that was good or bad, but I was proud of my-self anyways.
<3
I only had a few stutters.. 'cuase I was sorta nervous.. but they couldn't tell, 'cuase I improved and stuff. Anywho.. teacher says that after every audition, we should give our-selves a special treat, whether we did good, or not. So my special treat was the Special Japanese Melon Bread and Japanese Peach Cream Soda I was saving up, just for that occasion!
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But I couldn't get to eat 'em yet, 'till I got home.. 'sigh' so I had to desperatley try to call my mom to get her to pick me up. I left like four messages, and called on my friend's cell, too! I ended up waiting like and hour until she finally showed up.
So when I got in the car, she was already yelling at me.. but again.. I didn't care..
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I just tryed to ignore it until I got home.
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So for the rest of the day.. I ate my special snakies, and watched movies.
I was so excited, and couldn't wait to find out who got which role!
So I set my alram clock for 5-ish again.. not caring what they would have to say, and went to sleep.
The alram clock beeped at 5 a.m... but... this time, something was wrong.. the verbal abuse didn't seem like it did that previous days.. they were calling me retarded, and stupid idiot, 'like always' and that's because it was a late start day today..
D: So they were a 'little cranky' that I woke 'em up at 5 when they could have waken up at 8.
But.. they had no excuse for what they did to me.
I was sleeping peacfully, when the b***h started yelling at me, saying that I ruined her sleep, ['cuase she got up and got ready around 5] but since she's a stupid idiot, she forgot that it's only frikin schools that are late start day.. not 'her' work.
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But my brother.. 'he' was the one who made me cry so much while I was hiding under my covers.. he said, "You GOD DAMN ******** b***h!! I'm GOING TO ******** KILL YOU! GOD ******** DAMNIT!!! OOO:< SHUT THE ******** UP! STOP CRYING, I WANNA GO BACK TO SLEEP, DAMNIT!", and stuff like that.
Maybe he's on drugs or something.. 'cuase .. that's like the only plausible reason for that. It's just 3 hours earlier, it's good to wake up early too!
DDD:
So I fell asleep crying again.. wishing I had another life.
I woke up around 8:10, and my brother wasn't anywhere to be found, so I suspected he walked to his girlfriend's house to ride the bus with her.
I silently got ready, took my puppy out to go potty, fed him and my self some breakfast, and left for the bus.
I was getting kinda scared, 'cuase I saw no one at the bust stop.. so I thought I missed it, but eventually someone came, and I waited for the bus like everyone else.. it was so light out.. unlike at 6:45.. when it's still dark-ish.
'sigh'
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When it was finally time to go to theater to perform our skit we were rehearsing, everyone seemed to be crowding around the door.. I found out that it was the audition results! I couldn't beleive they were posted up so fast!
I was frantically searching for my name.. and holding my breath.. when I saw it.
'Frankie Futrelle Dubberly' ---- Luana McTiernan
I was.. in shock!
I.. couldn't beleive I got a lead role!!
I had mixed emotions.. 'cuase it was hard letting the idea sink in..
So all through theater.. [since it was a shortened class, we had time to rehearse our skits], my friends kept glomping me and saying 'Congratulations! You got the part you wanted!'
And if anything.. I thought I would have gotten the twins, 'cuase I'm sure I might look too young to be Frankie, but oh well, I got the part anyways!
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I hugged Mrs. Santanello, and thanked her for giving me the part, so did everyone else who got the roles they wanted.
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Mrs. Santa said, "Oh, you were soo amazing Luana! Absolutely fantastic!"
So I took that compliment and went on with the rest of my day..
That actually made my day!
I was soo happy I got the role!
Unlike.. last year.. in middle school when I wanted to get the lead role for 'Once pon a Mattress: The Princess & The Pea.. I would have gotten either Princess Winifred, or the Evil Queen.. [two lead roles], if I was just a little more confident in my self, and had a better audition. I still got a lead though.. just not the one I wanted.
So I took that old feeling of wanting to be more than just a background role, and turned it into something that made me have a great auditon!.. if that makes sense..
Uhm.. what I mean is that.. I knew that I would have gotten the lead role.. if I was confident, and less nervous in my audition.. and I resented/hated my self.. for not getting the lead through the entire play! So I vowed that the next time I audition, I'll be all I can be! And I'll have fun with it, too! .. and I did.. and got a lead.
:B
also.. it was my first time ever auditioning for something in the 8th grade play.. so I have more exp.
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Yaaay! I want to earn alot of thespian points SO I can become a true Thespian, and maybe even President of Drama Club one day.. xD
Oh yeah, I'm also supposed to be going on the morning annoucements to talk about Japanese Club n' stuff soon! So people can see meh pwetty face and I'll become famous!
O;
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Yeah.. and that's my exciting tale for this week.
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[i can dream...]
