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hey every one just writing to write I guess. To day has been an ok day my aunt is getting a letter better or so they say... my mom hasnt taken me to see her as of yet. I feel so un happy my face seems like I will never smile again... it hurts to be so sad... so afraid that happy feelings will never come again... its so odd... I can't really explain what it is that is making my so sad. Maybe its my x-b/f he has been calling alot lattly and his life is so bad ever sence we broke up and he says its all my fault... but I can't help the choses he makes.... but when we where dating he would do anything I would say so he was in school and not doing drugs but know hes droped out and into drugs and gangs and hes a drunk. He is 19 and killing his life. ug... lol I guess that is what I have been feeling so sad about I just didnt want to think about it...hum I guess theres nothing left to do but call him and find out how hes doing... do you think I should go back out with him.... but I really dont want to...

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