Hello all once more. Even though hardly anybody reads these things.
Life is..I mean was going termendously great until today. I am at the point of cracking, and before my beautiful vacation. GOSH DARN IT! WHY!?!?!
Im loving it all really. Just loving ((Sarcastically said)) People in Kimberely are extremely violent and don't believe anything that anybody says. Well not just in Kimberely, everywhere you go pretty much, people are like that. It's happening down on the coast and up in Whitehorse, for Christ sakes. I hate being caught up in the middle of it when I have many other things to semi worry about and do. I honestly try not to get all caught up in it, but sometimes I have to put my foot down and actually deal with the god foresaken problem, even if it ain't my problem. But luckily that hasn't been happening.....so far. I have had to actually deal with major high stress levels/ problematic issues of my own, physically and somewhat mentally I guess I could say.
People: School mates, and friends are driving me crazy with the whole factor of "Oh we must play fight so that we are buddy buddy." It bloody hurts. Well it hurts me. I have told them countless times to ******** off, but do they. NO! Its taking its toll on me. More pain than usuall it not a good thing for me since I already pack so much of it on with all the sports I play and my past experiences in which I failed in seeing an actual doctor.
That brings me on to another topic about people and pain.
People and Pain: Freinds seem to do this the most. When someone sprains their ankle ((for example)) the night before school and come to school limping or walking awkwardly, and when their beloved friend asks them the famous question, "Whats wrong?" you reply "I sprained my ankle last night,so I'm having diffuculty walking." The right reply from the friend should be like "Ouch. That must suck" or something along the lines of that. But here, in the Hellish place, the reply would be like "Oh you are so faking it. I've had worse pain than that so stop the bloody complaining." How unbelievably rude and inconsiderate. I for one have had people say that to me everytime I tell them what's wrong with me or why I'm feeling down. It is a bunch of bull s**t, and I'm sick of tired of people treating people that way. It is like a bloody compitition, who has had the worse injury, or who has the worst past.
Well out of it all....If it was a compition I believe that I would win. And I have said this before to many of my friends and they go "That's a bunch of bull, Your lieing." Well my dear friends, I am not lieing when I tell you that I had fractured my neck, broken 4 ribs, cracked my collar bone, dislocated both my shoulders, snapped my kneecap and broken 5 out of the 10 fingers all in one greatly disturbing skiing accident. ((wasn't fun, sick for days...felt like I was going to die )) The sad thing was I didnt see a doctor until after the injuries had healed. So my rib cage is basically ******** and I have on going neck and back pains 24/7. You would say "why dont you go take some medication" Well for me medication is like a high dosage of acid/poison. It makes my pain twice as bad. Except when it comes to headaches.. One tylenal will get rid of it but then I usually get a backlash wave coming at me withing the following couple of days. This is not my point really though....I dont know what my point is anymore..I have sorta lost track really but like whatever dude.
Today my knee/leg is giving out from right under me. I don't know if it is the soccer or the tennis or if an old wound opening to a new one. ((had shins problems like that, Soccer busted my shins along time ago and this year my shins got a bad beating I thought I would be fine. I missed the next day of school becuase I was in Shock and almost had to be rushed to the hospital)) (((Im such a sick person...but not really. It may seem like it but most of the things have happened since I was 7. Skiing incadent happened when I was 9. But up with it for.....6 or 7 years now.))
Anyway back on topic, So my leg was giving out on me today, everybody was like "She is faking it faking it . I would know, I should know". The only person that thought I wasnt faking it beside my tennis coach, was Meaghan. She didnt seem to believe me until tennis practise though. I was standing on one leg most of the time, hopping along like Terry Fox. And when we took a break I was nearly at the point of tears it hurt so much. I came home and broke out crying like a baby, which hasnt happened for years now. ((*laughing at self right now*))One reason...people are basically getting on my nerves, my teachers arent getting the stuff I need so I can catch up when I go on Vacation in Edmonton, my body hasn't hurt like this since a couple of years ago and I was blamed for my grandma's mental breakdown........once again. What fun. And the bloody car is in the shop so we have a stinky smelly rental van .BLAH.
On the bright side. Im at an A in all of my classes! I got chosen to go to a fullday science/math workshop becuase of my grade. I have tenis tournament coming up in May. I have the E.K's coming up in may for soccer. And this weekend I get to go to EDMONTON FOR A WEEK. WOOT WOOT I am sooo excited!!!!!!
Cant wait.
Well I really must wobble off. I need to eat some food. Im hungry as hell LOL
Later days!!!
Jessie
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