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Well, not for another 6 months or so, but still. I'm really excited! I'm 11 weeks (12 weeks this coming Sunday).

I'm a bit scared of course, but still really excited. I can't wait to see what its going to look like!!

Of course, I'm very worried since I don't currently have insurance, but I'm taking care of that as fast as I possibly can.

I've been eating properly (more fruits and veggies and the other food groups), but I still can't bring myself to eat 6 mini-meals a day! I started out eating *barely* 2 meals. And even those were quite small. I just don't eat when I'm not hungry...what's the point? Well, now I have to change that.

Of course, with my new job, since I'm actually working (between 15 and 25 hours on average a week!!), and I'm *constantly* walking at work, I'm getting *tons* of exercise, which means, I *still* need to eat a bit more in order to gain the proper amount of weight needed for my little one. *sigh* I'll make it though.

The thing that worries me the most, is that I haven't been able to go see an OBGYN yet. Since I can't afford to see one, and I don't have insurance, I can't get an appointment. I'm pretty sure everything is going just fine, but I can't help but wonder. I know that I'm missing out on lots of new baby stuff. I've got one set of ultra sound pictures (from 7 weeks 4 days), but it shows my baby as a tiny ball of cells and a yolk sac next to it. At this point, my baby is fully formed, but I can't see it!! Also, I should be getting close to being able to hear the heartbeat besides just seeing it (it already had a heartbeat at the 7 weeks 4 days mark!!).

Anyway, although I'm worried about the medical side of things, I'm actually OK with the other sides of it. I'm OK with becoming a mommy. It's weird, obviously. At times I don't feel ready at all, but then other times I remember how much I took care of my brother and other children. I've always been around children, and I like them. So it shouldn't be too much of a step from them to my own...right? hehe Though, I still feel very young..and at times I feel like a child having a child, I know that I'm mature enough to handle it. I am able to recognize that I may not be fully prepared, but then, who is? *especially* with their first? I'm just really glad that I have family that supports me and knows that I can handle this.

I'm going to be a mommy! ^_^