Well I seriously just want to drag a knife (dull or sharp) along every one of my veins and just ******** bleed it out. I can not ******** take one more ******** day of this retarded ******** up family; I'll go ******** insane..Or more insane. This is ******** retarded does my ******** up wanna-be drunk step-father know that my cell phones is also my alarm clock? NO! BECAUSE HE'S TOOO ******** DRUNK AND RETARDED TO KNOW s**t ABOUT ME. Goddess give me at least one more day of sanity before I ******** snap and go Freddy on their asses. My mother's no better; she's unhappy, I'm ******** suicidal (put two and two together dumbasses) and have a ******** chemical imbalance. She knows no one in this "family" is happy so why the ******** does she make me put up with this bull s**t. I need a ******** smoke and I don't even ******** smoke....what the ******** is up with that s**t?! For ******** sake I really need to ******** cut..Bad enough to the point where I'm shaking I need it soo ******** bad. But I won't because I'll have like a billion people start bitching at me for it . Days like this I should be allowed to cut or at least get drunk but can't do that either because going to work with screaming kids (damn birthday parties) and a hangover would not be fun. ******** me I need a ******** knife, smoke, a few billion bottles of advil/whatever and a ******** ton of vodka....I'd like to soo not feel feelings anymore right now.....
I think I'm going to run away agian or just go live with Kirsten and ******** murder Charity the dumb ******** blonde she is. God who the ******** lets a baby suck on a bleach bottle? LIKE WHAT THE ********?!
GODDESS I NEED TO ******** GO DO SOMETHING BEFORE I PULL OUT ALL MY HAIR!!!
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