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I had a dream a very strange dream last night.. first off the first think I remember is that it was very VERY long. I remember me and my grandma driving around.. she missed this turn, and then had to go down this VERY steep (exadurated like 100x's over) hill. so we went down it o-o and I thought it was scary, but she stuck her tongue out and held her tummy... then her eyes started to water and she got... lotion? o-o and so then she was wipping it off when one hand and trying to drive blind with the next. so I grabbed hold of the wheel (I'm in Divers Ed right now.. ahem. sweatdrop ) and I tried my best to keep the car in control > <; we stopped smothly on the other side of the road. xd but the point is we where safe <3

then I remember going to Utec.. all the kids on teh bus where loud and I just sat their looking at the picture of my b/f.. when I got their he was there! oddly enough I wasn't surprised at all o-o' someone asked how he was doing and he told them that he was feeling better.. I guess he had gotten sick with something.. I remember hugging eachother a lot.. he was there for me, and taking care of me crying then I remember going on teh UTEC bus suddenly (yey dreams) and he wasn't their, but I had a feeling he was suppose to be. crying their where only like a few people on, and on the way home it's usally a lot..

I don't remember what happend inbetween but we where back on the Utec bus once again. Tim was on this time, and we sat in the same seat and just hugged eachother.. I dont' remember many words. he just kept telling me how much he loved me.. T___T he was so gentle with me.. and kind.. just like I had always imagined it. When we went inside he had his arms around me.. it just felt so peaceful. he went off to the game section, and started talking to this other girl about this game they where playing. I didn't know what it was so I went off and got some food (Utec looked like target ^__^; xD I wish) so when I came back they where eatings together.. I was kinda sad cuz I wanted to eat with Tim, but I didn't mind. ^ ^; (ok well kinda) after awhile Tim came up to me. he started talking abou teh game.. he didn't look good at all. he sounded like he was breathing like he had just ran. he still looked as clam as ever.. he finally stopped talking about the game and slowly hugged me. his grip was weak.. and he said I love you and he dropped to his knees. T__T he had died. T__T I freaked out. I layed him down and started cryign my eyes out "he died cuz of a cold? we never got married!! we where suppose to have children!! what the ******** happend he was only 18!!!" T__T my teacher told me that their was no way anyone woulda known that would happen to him. (totally unrelistic, seeing as the odds of a healthy 18 year old, dieing suddenly from a common sickness was a zero to none.) then I woke up, and I just busted out with tears T__T I couldn't handle if my Tim died. what if it really happen soon!? I NEED him T____T Without him I'm nothing...

::sigh:: anyways it just took me an hour to get this thing done.. I hope Tim comes on soon. I really wish to talk to him crying