• I tried to write this on paper
    My hands were never steady
    The words to say are left unsaid
    For my voice is not ready
    My ways of thinking are strange
    They are never really clear
    Memories are lost while nightmares are remembered
    My mind is always full of fear
    That what we have now
    Will crash right in my face
    I know that'll never happen
    My past is just hard to erase
    Letdowns and beatdowns
    I forget it all once I see you
    Only when I try to write on paper
    The words come out untrue
    They speak of deciet
    Of lies and heartbreak
    I'll try to forget it
    But, habits are always hard to break
    I love you, I need you
    I just wanted to tell
    That when I can't see or hear you
    My world becomes a living hell