• Those words that you said to me
    Were only heard as a faint mutter in the darkness
    Seeming unimportant to me
    I felt it wasn’t something you could just utter
    I didn’t seem notice that you
    Were saying it differently for a long time
    Why didn’t I run when I had the chance?

    And maybe if I paid attention then
    I wouldn’t be the one hurt in the end and
    Memories wouldn’t haunt me
    If only I could remember the good ones
    Only the bad stay in my mind
    Paining my with the agony of a lost, pointless love

    If only I could be allowed to call it that
    Not even sure that you regarded it as the same
    It could all
    Just have been
    A game
    But of that I know I’ll never know
    I think some memories are coming back
    But I cant be sure

    Just to be able to be close to you
    Just to be able to be with you, differently than before, one more time
    Even if distant memories flood me with an agony that I don’t get at all
    Its okay
    Its alright
    With my stupid revolving thoughts
    Will the day ever come, when I’m at peace again
    That, who knows?
    This repeating question lingers softly, invisible, in the heavens above
    And becomes the light of the dawn’s sky

    Everything you ever said
    Could have most likely been an illusion
    Gone as quickly as its said
    The love that you talked about had already ended
    Loneliness took over me
    Tightening its hold like constricting chains, spilling my internal blood

    You can hear my scream cut through the wind
    Did it suddenly get colder?
    Its only because you are now here
    It doesn’t really bother me at all
    I just cant seem to let go of the words that the darkness took

    Just seeming to take a shallow breath
    Just to feel the same pain repeatedly again and again, endlessly
    Little by little I slowly realized
    Of this ‘love’ there was only ever one person involved, it wasn’t ever nearly enough
    To actually mean something
    I know who I want to protect
    Even if its not myself
    that’s okay for now
    Its enough
    At the next dawn the fragments of my rusted regret that I caught in my hands
    Could just as easily turn to light

    Just to be close to each other
    In a healthier way that before
    In a safer way than before
    would that be okay?
    Of that I’ll never be sure
    Until we try
    I cant help but ask, “Is that alright?”
    Who knows if you’ll answer…

    Just to be able to be close to you
    Just to be able to be with you, differently than before, one more time
    Even if distant memories flood me with an agony that I don’t get at all
    Its okay
    Its alright
    With my stupid revolving thoughts
    Will the day ever come, when I’m at peace again
    That, who knows?
    This repeating question lingers softly, invisible, in the heavens above
    And becomes the light of the dawn’s sky