Y'know...My memories never cease to haunt me...Thats all memories are for...to haunt your future with visions of your wretched past...But let me explain why I feel this way...Today, an ex girlfriend came to me while I was sleeping and whispered in my ******** me" then she nibbles on my ear...Suddenly, my mind is flooded with memories of what we were and I couldn't help it. I saw what we had and I felt terrible...I saw how we kissed and held each other and...I couldn't take it! I almost ripped my hair out...I told Kitty and she held me to console me but now those memories continue to haunt me endlessly as if we still have something to resolve, but I can't figure out what! I have no idea what the deal is but I just want to have a normal life without my past coming to bother me...Its enough that the 4 year anniversry of my first girlfriend's death is coming up...she meant so much to me....but I can't keep this up...I need clarity. The only one who is straight forward and comforting is Jasmine....I talk to her and I don't have this problem...Everytime I touch Kitty....my mind goes haywire.....At least I still have my friends and jasmine...
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