This is a serious journal entry right now. I am just contained more and more. I don't know how to explain my feelings anymore. With all that's going on, sometimes for me it's hard to think. I am swamped with all that I have to do, with all that's coming up, and the future. It's like I can't think on the present... I am just a complete wreck. I am feeling more insecure than ever and I feel like even though people listen and understand they will never go through all that I have been through. My parents think they know, but I just want to yell- more things have gone through my mind this week than my whole life! I don't know what's wrong with me. It's like my body has gone wacko and I am watching helplessly at the sidelines. It's is so hard for me to go through this. It would be like having all this stuff in your face and you have no idea what the world is talking about. That's how I feel. I am so confused and I am feeling utterly helpless to do anything about it. I am in a crack between past and future leaving the space to fall in between the present. To get back to the present i would have to fall into the void. I am so confused. My mind is whirling and I can't face it or something. Like my life is perfect yet I can't focus on it. Maybe it just isn't perfect. I am just really confused and lost right now. I am lost for words. Like I can't figure out what to say because I don't know what I should say or what I said. I am lost and I don't know why or what to do about it.
 __Shisuko__11 · Sun Apr 08, 2007 @ 09:02pm · 1 Comments |
