So....(yeah, lol, I know, always start off with that. It's me, tho. If I didn't do that then this wouldn't be my work)
I've come to terms that deep down I am an intensely jealous person of a few people. Like, I'm not jealous of them, but I'm jealous of the attention they're given.
I mean, I'm a low-profile person, and I want to keep it that way. But...well, when it's within your own family that you're having attention problems, it get's a little more unfair.
So I get my haircut, right? And it's adorable, and cute, and nobody notices I got my haircut unless I said something to them first.
But then...my sister, she gets her haircut around the same length, and everybody notices and it's gorgeous and she looks so mature and old now.
And I know, I go on about this a lot, but it just kind of bothers me. The example given above, it's like...that's my life compared to hers but ampliflied.
I could get straight A's-no, I really could-but it still wouldn't be like my sister, who was great cos she got B's cos she 'tried', but see, apparently I'm not trying cos I'm getting B's, but see, I am! That's the problem! I'm trying extremely hard but it's like, no matter wut it doesn't match up to what she does, and I don't know why.
I know, I'm second born, blah blah nothing's new with second-born kids, and that's prolly it...
I think..I think this is why I don't want to stay here, you know? I want to go somewhere where I won't feel jealous, and I won't feel bad guilty about that.
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