Have you ever just wondered if what you were doing was pointless. You try and try and try and nothing ever changes. Like for example chemistry. No matter what I do, and I really do try hard, I can't seem to get higher then a D+. stressed
Of like with friends. No matter what I do no one will ever talk to me. Even people who before were my friends. It's like no one wants to even be near me anymore. I try and talk to them but it either backfires on me and they make fun of/isult me, or they ignore me more! Even friends on the net or doing it.
*sigh* Can I just give up? It seems no matter what I do I end up pushing people away. All I ever wanted was one real friend. Someone I can tell anything to. Someone who would love and care about me. And vise versa. All I ever wanted to do is make people happy! Comfort them and cheer them up if their sad. Am I just cursed to have people hate me?! And friends I do have wonder why I never open up. Why I'm always acting happy. I can't help it! When ever I do open up people tell me to quit complaining! It seems no ones ever happy with me anymore. "Geez people! Just fricken tell me what the problem is you have with me and I can fix it!" That'd just probably chase people away more huh? sweatdrop
On a more happier note... a few people did talk to me today. Even friends that never/rarely even talk to me. And James! heart Gotta love a hug from James! Oh yeah! And I'm all caught up with me school work from being sick! Except chemistry. xp But chemistry sucks. And I only have one more thing left so, woot!
Anyway to go along with the title obviously this was a pointless post. Oh well it helps me get all the emotions out. Not like anyone reads this anyway. But if you are reading this, thanks. *hugs if you read this!*
Kyo Kitty Kun Lover Community Member 
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