 [.::.I'm Hexed With Regrets And Bad Luck.::.]
I feel really guilty now.
I've been breaking peoples hearts right and left.
Mine has been shattered twice in this past week.
Wade asked me out.
I'm going to reject him.
I just got out of a relationship.
I don't want another one any time soon.
I'm not ready for that kind of thing yet.
I notice how much I say the word // letter, "I" in a day.
I should stop thinking of myself.
There it is again.
But it's really the only thing I can say.
I'm just talking to myself, anyway.
This is the only place I can let my thoughts flow freely and not care who reads it.
This is MY place.
Nobody has the right to tell me what I can and can't put here.
My emotions are the main subject.
I should try to stop that, but I'm not.
I'm thinking of quitting Gaia.
I don't know.
So many bad memories on here.
But so many good ones at the same time.
It's all too confusing for me to try to figure out right now.
My mind and thoughts are all jumbled together.
I've been really numb this past week.
Who cares.
It's not like anybody really cares about me.
None of my friends do, except for maybe three of them.
Natasha being at the top.
I feel like crying right now.
My eyes are all watery, but I'm trying to stop crying.
I'm not a damned emo kid.
I just can't help it, though.
I promised my mom I wouldn't cut myself anymore.
So I'm not going to.
I try to keep all of my promises.
Hey, John is online.
I'm going to rant to him.
See ya'll later, I guess.
[.::.So Keep Your Distance; It's Rubbing Off.::.]
 CaRto0nz · Sun Feb 11, 2007 @ 12:41am · 2 Comments |
