As of late my life has not been so easy. I am still with Chelsea and I am happy yet I feel I am to blame for this. Her father learned of me sometime ago and was cool with me, to an extent as any father is with his daughters beloved. However he has since learned that I have there families address, and phone number. SO now she is moving to a different city. She isn't allowed to talk with me on aim anymore. However she is going against that rule. For that I am very happy. I juust feel riddles with guilt over this. My dreams have not been too happy either. I dream of using my body to protect these people below me. WHen my back is torn apart with spears stabbing into my back ripping me apart. My blood sprays EVERYWHERE animating itself into tiny monsters who stab me with small spears. I scream in agony and impale myself on these tiny spears. When I awake I feel there spears in my arms and legs......*sighs* why is it when I find happiness life makes some unhappiness for me.
 Azalin · Sun Feb 20, 2005 @ 11:43pm · 2 Comments |
