I'm shocked at how easily my mood drops when I'm left alone in particular.
I wouldn't say I feel crappy just down and believe I'm starting to develop some kind of cold. x_x
I was fine around Chris, I like smiling when I don't feel under pressure too it's a great feeling. :] I haven't been home long and have quickly developed a nagging headache.. but it's more a sudden wash of guilt has re-arisen. I've done most things recently wrong, opened my mouth when it should have remained closed, even putting my name down to go on the trip was a mistake but people can say the ******** they like about it I know the bloody truth, it was fair.
Orlin got me a xmas pressie today. :]] It's 'Why I Write' by George Orwell who has turned into my favourite political writer - go 1984!! I mean afterall the quotation on the front says:
'Political language is designed to make lies sound truthful and murder respectable, and to give an appearance of soldity to pure wind' - Amazing. :]
Had parents evening last night, was well pleased with myself. I'm doing great so far and Mr Keady now likes me cos I'm the only person to do all my coursework. ^o^
I feel like I'm making great academic progress, and am well pleased with myself.
My home situations starting to take it's strain though it's hitting me hard how much I have to grow up.. I know I'm not ready for it all but afterall sometimes it has to be good to take a jump into the deep end of life. o.o
Oh yeah, what's really getting under my skin at the moment is how people who don't have anything to do with things that have happened recently are. It's bloody annoying and the best metaphor I can conjure is that I feel like I'm being outweighed on scales, I;m being condemned and judged for things I shouldn't be.
I'm gonna take Chris's advice and make some new friends. It'll probably do me some good after all, I need to develop my social skills anyways.
Ross, I feel sorry for snapping all afternoon but you don't listen to me and you cling. Please stop it, I know that it's easier said than done [all things are] but please, I don't want to fall out with you too but I've said how moody, depressed and down I feel around school. I don't have much social time, I'm spending so much time with Chris because he's my escape from school at the moment. I know it's all my fault but please.. before we really do get to the 'point of no return' as so to speak.
 HoverCrab · Fri Dec 15, 2006 @ 07:26pm · 0 Comments |
