Alright, before I get started I must point out that I've become horrible at spelling so this entry will probably be full of annoying little errors that drive people mad. With that said.
I was thinking about it today as Rachel almost got me killed in her car. She has a habbit of speeding and we were approaching a light that I knew would turn before she reached it, though she failed to realize this matter herself. The only thing I could imagine for a few moments was the truck to the right not noticing us and slamming into the passenger side, my side, leaving the rest to the ever-morbid imagination. I was scared and while she just barely made the light to escape such a thing, the feeling that something bad was going to happen never left. Personally, I saw the light turn myself, maybe it was just me and my own little twisted mind but I swear it changed before we got to it. I don't know. ::Shrug:: Guess it didn't happen.
Something else I was thinking about though, besides the usual which was missing what I had over Christmas Break. Someone said something about the past, somehow it was brought up and I started to actually remember something. Quite pointless really but I remembered how I wanted his approval and to be part of his life instead of having it involve only those he had it disclosed to. I remembered sitting up with him late at night when he was worried about his ex committing suicide and he couldn't get any rest, remembered how nervous he was to go see her there in the place of evil, remembered how I told him that I hated him because he left me out even though I didn't mean it. Hate how it comes back all at once and tends to ruin your mood so it's actually noticeable.
I know though, that instead of only being part of his life I've become it, at least that's what I've been told or that's what I remember being said. Maybe that was wrong just as I was with the street light being changed but I can't believe it is. Sounds really annoying and whiny now that I write it but no one's actually gonna read this anyway xd . Not sure why but it makes me happy to know that we're so close now, even though he's paranoid about us not being such a way, but I care for him more than he sees. It's that little emotional issue that doesn't let me express myself all that great. Wait...HE WAS RIGHT! I AM BROKEN!!!! Eh, oh well. Broken is fun whee
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