So I don't update this thing much.
But I'm going to right now. Since I post too much emo in my LJ.
But I'm always so emo. sad
I saw Science of Sleep. Makes me think about life a lot better, but I'm still really depressed. xd
Medically I've been on a rollercoaster. confused
I've been to more doctors in the last month than I have in years. )':
But, understandably, they panic for horrible stabby chest pains. Which I still have. After...3diagnosises, 3different medications, 1 really painful test, and a mess of Xrays and Doctor's visits.
As of now they think it's my bones being stupid. So I'm on steriods an I have to go though Physical Therapy.
See, that depresses me when it shouldn't because I wish it was something horribly serious because they'd be able to catch it and then fix it, but instead I've been living with horrible pain for two months straight now.
But it makes me so tired. It's tiring putting up with pain that long. And it makes breathing really hard sometimes.
Then I had a cold and that made everything worse.
I have more doctor's in the next month. Yay.
If it doesn't get better they're just going to put me on Antistress/antidepressants. Which I DON'T WANT. sad
And my Amanda left me. She's in Germany with Aaron now. We threw her a baby shower before she left.
I miss her. I send her Myspace messages and snailmail letters every chance I get. But it's not the same.
And Maria's talking about moving to NC. But I can't afford to go with her.
Everyone I love is either really far away from me or is planning on moving really far away from me.
I hate being an art major. I have no money! emo emo emo
In other news my ThreeYear Gaiaversary is this Friday. Check out the link in my signature.
I'm going to go shower and cry now. biggrin
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