I look back and I still get angry. There will be points where I'm ok, have no problem. Some points where I enjoy myself and won't even think of it. Then, I have those moments where I sit and it crosses my mind and I feel hurt. I wish my emotions would make up their god damn decision on how I am suppose to feel about it all. All I know how sure if I want pain. Maybe you know what kind I want, maybe you don't but I want it.
I don't care about love and crap like that sometimes I don't care about my well being other moments, if I had a chance to I would. I know I would regret doing it but just for that breif moment. The same feeling a guy gets when they jackoff and ejaculate, I'd get the same satisfaction on a different level only to have it follow with some guilt and regret. I know I would recover if I did get it.
stare Momo stare
Just for that gratification of some pain with no punishment
would
be
bliss
Music: T.A.T.U= All the things she said
Now to go to Wal Mart
 Momosai · Wed Jan 12, 2005 @ 10:08pm · 0 Comments |
