It does not matter if I hurt myself, only if others hurt me or I hurt them. I'm fine now I swear. I can laugh and smile and I swear I feel no malice. Just a litte fear of not understanding. I thought I was being lied to and cheated. Kept in the dark. I really don't care anymore though I have decided this morning that I don't. Do whatever you wish and I do not say this in a pist mood or anything I am sweetly serious. Do whatever you really want you can't stop your feelings. I just hate myself now. Always hating myself. Pain is so bittersweet.
I plan on dissappearing into the woodwork again.
Let my skin meld into the earthen wall, it'll take me
Not refusing and welcoming me with comfort.
I plan on disappearing into the woodwork anyways
Sure I'll miss you all but here I'm not hurting
Here I'm beautiful in a frozen state
So I'll let nature take me back
 Momosai · Sun Jan 02, 2005 @ 06:21pm · 0 Comments |
