I miss him.
Today I feel like no one knows my pain. Maybe they don't. It's so weird though. I feel like I've pushed it back so far away from me. I've swallowed the heart ache and the childish thoughts about him to the back of my mind. When I came on the computer and started up my playlist, I was fine. And now Colbie Caillat came on with I Never Told you and it was the last drop of water in the dam. Everything came flooding out and now my head is pounding, my heart is aching, and I feel like crying.
I miss everything about him, it's true. I miss the way he smiles, his tan skin, and the way he made me feel with even a glance or the thought of him maybe thinking about me. Today just feels like someone broke my fears, my love, my heart ache, and my depression and it all came flooding out. It's like my heart was a piggy bank full of change. Most of you won't know who I'm talking about, but I hope you get what I'm saying. I hope this gets through to some people. I want them to know:
Never fall to hard, you'll just end up falling on your face. Unless you know they'll catch you and never let you go, don't do it. Just don't.
 esperanato · Tue Apr 19, 2011 @ 02:58am · 0 Comments |
