I'm there, she's there, he's there, am I? I don't remember if I'm Him or Her. I'm both. I'm two. And the three of us begin to merge. I am two, we are four, we are three because I'm an intruder, actually, but in the end, we are one. We're meant to be. We are four three one.
How come tears run on my cheeks when she looks away? She laughs. Her laughter sounds like a billion stars shimmering in daylight. Unheard, but so precious. I search and call but only the silence answers. Already gone in another world is she? Now, there's only me. Alone.
The only thing that remains is an intense feeling I can't even describe. It was love, it was strong, and I was feeling very lonely. Which doesn't surprise me at all, as it's exactly the way I feel lately.
I'm not alone. I have friends, who care, and whom I care about. I have a wonderful family. I love them all, yet I can't help feeling lonely.
I guess there are things you can't share with anyone. I'd like to, but I just can't right now. I know I once did. With friends, with lovers. But right now is a moment in my life when I'm unable to share these things with someone, however I wish to. Yearning and fear are too mixed up.
I'm good, really. A little adrift, but who isn't, in these days? Just dreamy.
The future is a blank page I've yet to write.
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