Damn I need to update this thing more.
Okay, so, life as I know it sucks a**. I'm in love, or at least, I'm infatuated. I won't claim it to be love just because the emotion is strong and because I've never felt something that wonderful.
In case someone can identify what I'm feeling: Whenever I'm around him, even if we're on opposite sides of the room, I feel overcome with a warm feeling that spreads throughout my entire body. When our eyes meet, I feel almost naked, like I can't hide who I am and replace her with who I pretend to be. All my shields fall and I'm left completely defensless. His touch alone is enough to send my heart into overdrive. But when we dance... Oh god, it's like all my problems disappear. It feels like the entire world dissolves around us, there's only him and me, his arms holding me tightly to his warm body.
A question that probably comes to mind is 'why is being in love/infatuated a bad thing?' and I have to admit, it's a very good question. I was never able to understand how love could be something bad. Now I know. This intense emotion is a curse because I don't think he cares for me...
Now, I've never minded being single, but this is just too much. I can handle rejection, I've been rejected before, and on Valentines Day none the less! But it's the not knowing that's killing me. I haven't spoken to him since the 9th of December but I already miss him more than anything. I probably sound like a pathetic child, but I can't help it.
I'll admit it, I need help.
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