When life leaves you, you wonder wants good in life? Why are you even here? Then you remember that certain someone hoping that they will sweep you off ur feet and just for once talk to you without being "forced" But then you get back to life and realize it would never happen and you think you should just fall dead. But then coming back to the thought of that certain someone, how can you ever get life right? Should you just live in dream land all the time or life? I rather live in life, but the dream part would worry me, knowing my dream would never come true, and i would be left alone wondering what to do in life, and then that little fantasy about that certain someone comes back, and you just give up on dying just for that person, even if it means dying for a friend....
emo But how could you live through the pain of a friend dying? My heart is just being broken into shreds, i can't decide anymore. I wish i would fall dead, but remember that friend would want me to live, knowing i didn't save her she would just want me to live to be there for her friends and mine. I hope i can fulfill that dream what that happens, but right now I'm just going to cry myself to sleep hoping that my dream land can come and i can live in real life when i'm....
asleep
Ciao, sono Bekah
