I don't really know what to say..again. I guess I still don't have words. I'm just..sad. I wish I wasn't so sad. So durn sad. Feeling so..lonely. I just feel so..lonely. I have people to talk to..but it's hard to tell if it's any different from talking to a..to..a..well..something you can't trust. Something to can't depend on. I can't think of a word for that, either..