OKIE I AM RLLY PISSED OFF AT MY MOM SHE READ MY (just made!) DIARY! I WANT TO KILL HER! On the first page it was a little bout my tiny depression and thinknig stage and wut i thought of life and shyt and she thinks im insane! MY OWN MOTHER THINKS INSANE! I-I CANT BELIEVE SHED THINK THAT! She starts making fun of me and shyt THEN has the nerve to keep me away from the computer almost ALL day I havnt tlked to James yet IM LOSING IT AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WISH I COULD LIVE WITH MY DAD FOR MY LIFE! Im going to take up on ym dads offer....on gonig to college in Puertorico when the time came...or if by then..me and cuddlybear meet....IDC I sjut wanna get away from my mom.....at least forawhile.......too bad all those plans r far away...I hate being twelve.....ppl think ur to young to think right and stupid....I feel tiny in this world. My mom been callnig me anti social all day jsut cuz i didnt wanna go outside. She thinks I have friends and when i told her i splitted from them she told me i didnt no how to make friends.......................
That set me off. I locked my room door and screamed into my pillow i wanted to kill her....mother or not.....so she gave me life...so....what...
I dont WANNA make friends.......i gave up ALOT of my friends for a reason..i only want to be friends with people who think somewhat like me....people who understand me....i act cheery...im really sad underneath...and its growing my sadness is growing and it hurts....my family is NO help........
After all that my dad decided to call...mom was getting sick of me so I decided to go with him.....
I went outside for a bit with my older cuzins and talked...mom came out and started bringing up that MOTHER FAWKING subject bout wut happened to me and cuddlybear (Thank God she doesnt know who did that) of when cuddlybear got ..uhh.."caught" if ur my close friend u no wut i mean anyway she starts saying shyt..and I realize she DOES NOT TRUST ME AT ALL
My own...FAWKING...mother....
Today was really a bad day.....I rlly wish I had a place where I could just drift from reality and think of nothing....
Just nothing.....my heart is barely holding up....its slowly tearing..I just got it healing and now its tearing apart again....Why is life so complicated and full of pain...Why God...WHY?????????
Ash The Tiger Community Member 
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If she found out about your depression, she should try to help you...Not torment you...
Just hold on, life gets better.