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That Girl
Chapter 4
Boulevard of Broken Dreams


I walked alone tears rolled down my cheeks. I wore black my hair emo styled and wore emo glasses and walked into the sunlight down the road. I saw people stare. My blood dripped from my lip. I walked down to my favirote resturant where Jerimiah worked. "Yo Miah" I said my voice choked up when I said his name. He ran over to me wide eyed. And pulled out a napkin. I nodded no. "So what makes ya emo?" He said grinning slightly. "Life theres this girl who likes me and I don't know if I like her." He looked at me again,"i thought you were straight" I ran outside and tripped at the exit. My knee's bled. I closed both eyes and ran away. Sometimes life's not so simple. Sometimes crying's the only way. I looked up at the sky. Looked at the sun and sung. "The sun will set for you, oh the sun will set for you. And the shadow of the day will embrace the world and grey. And the sun will set for you." I hugged my thighs and cried on my knees. I walked a bit further and looked in a puddle at my reflection, it scared me, I ran away. Blood like mascara covered my eyelids. Blood on my lips on chin. I felt my phone vibrate. And looked at my text.
Dont die your needed on earth live
Anonomyus.
I didn't know who knew I was thinking that. But I wasn't scared. I looked at my picture on the school magazine, I looked so happy so not myself. My tourtured eyes gleamed with excitement. I grabbed a kitchen knife. And cut myself. It felt so good. I watched blood puddle to the floor. A second later I fainted. And woke in a bright white room. My clothes gone. But I was wearing a hospital outfit. Christopher stared down at me with tears in his eyes "I thought you died." I touched my eyelids my blood still there. "No," I said softly, "Im not dying." He kissed my forehead. "You okay?" he mumbled quietly, "Yes I am." I saw him go out and get something. "My guitar!" I screeched in delight, he plugged it in, I played bleed it out linkin park. "Thanks!" He looked at me sadly, "Is that what happened? You tried to bleed it out?" I nodded yes dramatically, he put his hand on his forehead and nodded no. He sang hero heroine to me I felt weak, I pulled him closer, and kissed his forehead. "I always loved ya," I whispered in his ear.