Im officailly losing it in my head. I keep thinking me and cuddlybear are gonna drift away, but my love for him is still beyond any in the world. I jsut get the feelig im gonna make a mistake and boom hes gonna go bb from me. Or hes jsut gonna break me off. Well okie ive been thinknig more on what id do. besides the fact of kill myself i had a bad thought of screaming and crying and going insane. Like literally going insane getting a knife hurting everyone I see cursing his name then like jsut giving up and finally killing myself. How can someone so young as me (12) THINK SO HORRID????? Really my mind is NOTHING like a 12 yr olds. I just, Idk, im just also basically going insane slowly. I think by the time me and cuddlybear finally meet im going to be in a complete insane stage. Maybe talking to cuddlybear more could bring me back to reality on whats happening NOW not the FUTURE. And if so the future all the GOOD things.... I think Now I need him MORE than EVER. I need your help cuddlybear help me?
Ash The Tiger Community Member 
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You should stop thinking about the future of you and James - you don't even know if the future includes the two of you together. Just focus on the present because in the present you have a caring & loving boyfriend named James.
Stop worrying,
~Sam