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Why cant these thoughts just STOP? The thoughts of death cuz of cuddlybear they dont wanna go away! It hurts so bad everyday thats the first thought that pops into my head, what im capable of. If James leaves me idk what im capable of doin to myself. Stabbing myself, death i no id do it. I know id stab myself, id live a happy death if he lives but dying at such a young age as myself? Dying at 12 is no life! Its disaster its' what the devils dream of! ITS HORRIFIC! its so DREADFUL! Y WONT THE THOGUHTS JUST STOP O I NO Y BECUZ JAMES IS JUST SUCH A GREAT PERSON AND I DONT DISERVE HIM! And sooner or ltr he'll figure that out and jsut leave me! Leave me in this cruel world of darkness alone with nothing to think about but DEATH! AND THATS WUT ILL DO KIlL MYSELF! THIS IS SO HORRIFIC GOD HELP ME SOMEONE HELP ME PLZ! gonk