Well, typically I would drown myself with my blankets in my bed to sweetly go to sleep, but instead I choose to lay on top of the cold wood floor, awake.
Unfortunately, the broad study of my mind, like many others, is a wonder.
I really do not know what I am purposefully awake for, and or just here, on Earth, in general. Can't lie that I was once a suicidal baby.... Well, that's the past.
Typically, I would let my worldly needs consume me, and I still allow them, but I have my escape out of reality. Walking the dog? Well, that helps a tad, but I end up saying "This world sucks" when I am halfway through my mile walk. I really miss my little fantasy world, but something in my brain triggered that I must be a part of a human reality, and I do need it.... I taught my friend Mams about my fantasy reality and he just taught me about plain reality itself. Ever since that, reality impacted my life.... and now, you can probably see my true colors.
Giving up on relationships for now is quite difficult, but really, I don't want one until I gain my trust on people back. I really lost it in my last relationship, cause I thought I could believe him, but you know, things seem dreamlike while they last, but as of now, it's ******** reality that is dragging me down.
Clintorus Eastwood Community Member 
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