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I was at soccer practice today, usual nonsense.
Kat in the goal, dancing back and forth as she does, hyper-actively singing show tunes from children shows like Spongebob Squarepants and Wonder Pets, things of that sort.
Madison, rambling away about how she couldn't see s**t without her glasses during practice.
Sam, talking about Bleach and Zachary [her boyfriend, my good friend] and things of that sort.
Tori, shooting soccer balls at Kat.
Sarah, making perverted jokes about Sam and Zachary.
Me, running my a** off while they goofed off.
I wanted to get my muscles all better... Stronger, back to as toned as they were during last summer.
I wanted to be IN SHAPE.
I ran as much as I could...
Until I had that not-so-unusual dizzy feeling I get whenever I work too hard without enough water.
I felt faint, crazy, slowed-down...
As if I were dying.
It was odd...
Is that what dying feels like?
I fell to my knees and put my hands on my temples, my brain telling me it was just an illusion, my heart telling me to calm down or it will crush it's self.
It didn't feel real, it hurt, and yet, I felt out-of-body.
I felt insane.
My eyes bashed back and forth, waiting for someone to come over and help me stand, for I couldn't do it all by myself.
I felt sick.
Like I was going to puke blood.
I doubled over even more, rubbing my temples slightly.
The vibrant, neon-green grass that stood near my face fading into a dead black-and-white wall of dead strings.
I saw ashen feet with gray sandals step on the dead, black strings.
"Dad?" I asked, lifting my head.
"Honey, are you alright?"
"I feel sick, coach."
"Go sit by mom." He said, holding out a hand.
I took his hand and stumbled over to mom.
"Hey there, Han. You okay?"
I shook my head at her.
"No, assistant coach. I feel bad. Sick..." I murmured, laying down on the hot black pavement.
She threw some water on my head, after about 20 minutes, I got back up and started running again.
Is that what dying feels like?
o.o I don't want to die of lack of water and oxygen!
 Hato Bakufu · Sat Mar 07, 2009 @ 08:03pm · 2 Comments |
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